Earlier this year…

One of the things my sister and I have been talking about the past few days is that we will start to buy Christmas gifts earlier this year. And this time, we will do it for real!

The past few years, we’ve been dilly-dallying and would buy gifts at the last minute. So we vowed that we wouldn’t do it anymore. This year, I told her that we’ll start with the uncles then the aunts before the cousins. One fantastic gift Guitar Center has, moog synthesizer at a great price! It will be for Uncle George who is a musician. I am sure he will appreciate an addition to his instruments at home.

We will a whole list to think of. We come from a large clan so there are lots and lots of uncles, aunts and cousins. It really is a good thing we are starting early this year.

Feels like home.

Do you know that musiciansfriend.com drums that I saw online? It made me think of and feel like home! And by home I mean my mom. She’s not with us anymore, having been taken by her kidney problems early in life. All these years and we still miss her like crazy. Especially now that we have a nephew at home who we know she would have doted on had she still been with us.

Of course, part of me will always be grateful that my mom no longer feels the pain that she used to feel due to her illness. She’s in a much better place now, I am sure of it. Longing for her makes me think of her from time to time, wishing she’s here with us, at home…

Mommy will always be home for me… us.

Not in a good place.

There is so much that we can do for someone who is suffering from depression. I have a friend who is currently trying to mend her life after her marriage failed. We, her friends, know that she’s not in a good place right now so we are doing our best to cheer her up. It’s not much but music is helping. One of our common friends is getting a couple of instruments including an akai mpc at guitar center to set up a soulful night at a local pub. We are doing it for her and we are hoping that she finds strength in whatever we are doing for her.

I am sure that it will pass. She is one very brave and strong person. But right now she is not fighting it. She’s still grieving over what she lost. I am praying that it will pass and soon.

Cheers to the music!

We’ve come this far. After everything that we went through, all the tough times and harder days, we survived! We are alive and kicking!

I love that the stanton st 150 triggered a trip down memory lane for us. We reminisced about the good old times, the bad times, the worse days. And it was so emotional for us. We didn’t think we’d be able to surpass all the trials and yet, here we are still breathing, still fighting, and coming out better than ever.

Cheers to the music!

A different path.


Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you…

That line… kills me, every time.

My best friend and I were talking about going to a different path. We are both in the finance field. We both want to go into something music-related. Like we know our stuff, the elicenser, and some other. Not experts but we know enough.

We are not getting any younger so we thought this is the perfect time to really do something we love, we are passionate about. It is a risky move considering we are already deeply embedded in the finance industry and have become pillars in the companies we’re employed at. But if not now, when?

We don’t want to wake up one day regretting the chance we let slip away.

That voice, though…

That Closer song by The Chainsmokers makes me smile. Every. Damn. Time. I swear it does. It makes me think of those days we were still close. We talked every single day. We talked about his love of photography and my subtle obsession with romance novels. We talked about music, his vestax vci 380, and my growing collection of fiction books. We also talked about trivial stuff. And those things which made us groan, cringe, and laugh.

Those were the days.

When I hear that guy from the first lines of Closer, it reminds me of him. He would sing like he’s the best singer in this side of the planet but the truth was he had a terrible singing voice. He had a good speaking voice, though, but singing… Makes me laugh right now thinking of him.

Oh, I wish those days will happen again. Even once… even in my dreams…

Grateful for extra work.

I will be very busy with reading reviews for a man I am doing part-time work for. I would love to celebrate Thanksgiving with friends but I guess this is also a way of celebrating and giving thanks, that I have extra work to do with Christmas just several days away.

I plan to give myself something really special this Christmas. I know I deserve it! I’ve been working harder than ever for the past year and I deserve a special something for all that work I gave.

I am actually hoping for more work to come in. I want to be able to take a holiday break and go back to work a week into January 2015. I hope I will have enough in my pocket to be able to do that.


Thankful every single day!


I know those of you in the US are celebrating Thanksgiving Day today. Let me tell you that I am also celebrating it… but not just today, every single day of my life! I am grateful for what I have and what I’ve become.

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone celebrating today wherever you may be!